just came back to my room from talking to ping. 4 whole hours we talked!! =) i really love this girl and our conversations.. no matter how serious or hilarious ey may get. feels really gd to just sit down in our own lil corner and talk like we've got all the time inta world and all the world to ourselves. i felt much better aft the talk even tho both our probs weren't solved. haha. we were tallking abt like hall life.. the pros n cons of it.. abt how all these expectations build up.. and how u feel u got to act up to them..abt cliques..how and why they form and the 'consequences' of em.. abt how sometimes u just want to eat with 1 person and not e whole clique..or how sometimes u just want to steer away sometimes.. how some friends are really situational friends..you're only close to them at one point of time in your life.. but at least they were a part of it and that perhaps they were there at that time for a reason. lol. we were talking abt how its really hard to make really gd frens in hall.. and how hall life is transient n u gta look back to ur jc n sec life to seek out ur true frens etc.. we were also wondering.. that all of us got so many sides to us.. to diff grps of pple n all n whether all our sides are in fact a reflection of our true selves? n if we are being fake? why is it so... and all these kinda things hahaha. well i tink the different sides of us arent fake.. just tt when u hang out with diff grps.. well cz grps come tgt cz of certain similarities.. so when we're with tt particular grp of pple we just tend to show more of tt side of us.. if that even makes sense at all.


i dntknw. i tink ping and i.. we're just living in our own lil world sometimes..its like.. we're traditional girls living in a modern world (this one is really hard to explain.. its more like the values n stuff)..we love to just sit back.... talk....look at the stars..
always dreaming of escaping to an island where there's the sun sand and sea. just imagine yourself on an island with your best buds.. basking in the suns warmth.. cooling yourself down with an ice cold drink.. hearing the rise and falls of the waves.. hear seagulls chirping in the distance.. just lying down.. with not a care in the world but for that very moment.. a moment of peace and tranquility.. a moment you have all to yourself.. where you and your best bud(s) simply lay back and enjoy nature and all its beauty as time crawls by.. where there is no need to talk and an air of comfortable silence just takes over. yes. this is the kind of life we dream about. sometimes i feel we're like two people stuck in the world of disney. where everything is a fantasy.. where everything and everyone is happy. we usually prefer the old to the new.. we love to stone and reminisce abt the good ol times and how things used to be.. we enjoy old movies tgt.. enjoy the simplicity of life.. forever lazing ard inta pool and talking rubbish..staying over at each other's hse's not do anything spectacular but simply enjoy each others company..or perhaps stone in silence tgt..watch brainless things tgt.. with topics ranging from small things.. to larger things... stupid to philosophical... abt past present n future...from lil things tt affect us.. or just any random thought. like i said.. its really hard to explain. but the bottom line is .. we're in our own lil world. i dont know why we alws end up talking like tt somehow..with alota crap and stupid things in btw. like just now in her room.. we were 'playing' softball with a marker and this small plastic ting(u know the small egg like capsule thing tt usually contains a toy inside which u have to slot a coin inta machine to turn out?).. ahha.. the marker being the bat and the plastic ting being the ball. ahhaha. madness. many other stupid and crazy examples i can provide you with.. but lets not put our reputation at stake or in jeopardy here. (:


sometimes its good to just sit down and talk with a friend..not just cz u wna bond with her or him or u feel obliged to cz u havent done so in a really long while.. but bcz u really wna talk to that person and u really wna knw wats happening in his or her life. i feel sometimes you dont have to meet in quantity..sometimes its better to just stick to smaller numbers..i mean tgt is more fun of course.. but sometimes im so sick n tired of all the nonsense..and life is like becoming so monotonous that i just feel like moving back home. well.. i always believe in my motto.half of which i came up with.. the other a gd fren of mine.. chris.. alws tells me.. that ''everything happens for a reason... and everything happens for the best'' eventually it'll all work out.

10am now.. and im still not asleep. ROCKS. anyways.. to my dear DU PI .. happy birthday dearrrrrrr!! sorry i cant be there to celebrate your bdae with you once again! nonetheless.. you've always been my best friend and best cousin. we've known each other for 20 yrs now.. and despite the distance set btw us.. we still manage to remain as close as ever. i really believe that true friendship is hard to find.. and you are someone i believe will stand by me forever.. who's friendship will definitely withstand the test of time (and distance). cant wait for you to get back to spore (: i miss you.